June 2009

28 June [23:16] Sunday

Called up my usual stylist and realised that the line had been terminated and realised she's left the salon. -_-

i need a new hair stylist. zzz

went to pick up dd after haircut and went for dinner at fish n co. i need to stop eating so much cause my waist line is expandin *sobsob*

that aside, the last few days was just MJ in the news, although i only remember playing some video games when i was really young and listening to him on the CDs my dad bought, i wasn't really a fan. but yea i liked his songs. Was mentioning to dd that in this current century, there will no longer be people like elvis, the beatles n MJ in the music industry, people with THAT kind of charisma and effort on people all over the world.

i liked this song best makes me feel better at some point of time in the past =)

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

alrightey... gotta start studying =(
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26 June [08:05] Friday

Woke up this morning and ransack my entire room, followed by wherever in the house i might store chargers. my mom ask me wassup with me in the morning so i just told her. someone who decline his own things and say give to me decided to ask it back after he has a new gf. my mom was like "eeee.... y he so like that one".. yea.

i would feel kinda bad in the past? but now. nah. i don't feel bad anymore, i think he deserves it, to think i bothered to explain (even though he doesn't GETS it) each and everytime he keeps asking about the same things.

" why you treat other people better than you treat me "

" why is it that you can bchat with other people but you cannot bchat me "

why this why that, forever comparing how i treat others and how i treat him. he's quite a funny chap

cannot accept the below
i think we better just be friends cause i just don't think we're suited for each other. YYY he asked. fundamentality not suitable for each other

then he said coz you still love your ex right. -_- to which i replied. even if i don't love my ex, i still won't choose you. JUST-NOT-SUITED-FOR-EACH-OTHER.

it's like duh-er. if EVERYONE can be with ANYONE why in the world are there divorces and breakups?

moron. and so he didn't accept the TRUTH when i told him the TRUTH, i don't know what he decided to delude himself in. and one day it came to the point i ignore him. YES. ignore him cause he was fucking annoying. If someone, for the past 3 months, keeps harping on the same questions when you've already answer it only means 1 thing

HE DOESN'T FUCKING LISTENS! y? self delusional lor.

this is my pent up frustration which i do whine occassional. but really. i just couldn't take it.

stop me at the carpark don't allow me to go home somemore. send him home, not willing to get out of the car. i wanted to leave the car behind at HIS HOUSE so i can just go home and rest (cause he was just fucking unwilling to get out of the car) nevermind. proceeded to get off the car and grab my wrist (ya fucking painful) i think he's some kinda psycho.

if he wasn't such an ass i probably would just keep all these things within myself. but since he's such an ass. i'll just rant whatever i want. no saving grace.

there are some guys who treat you nicely before you are together, during, and are gracious when it ends.

HE, however. sadly does not belong to that category.

i'm irritated because, you could have accepted BACK your stuff instead of saying you're giving them to me. IRRITATED cause i cannot stand people who go back on their words (even if i don't like what was given/don't find it useful). Fundamentally, there's just something wrong with you!

on another hand. i feel glad that i found someone much better.

thanks dear dear for listening to me whine almost about everything.
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26 June [01:08] Friday

my comp was down and the whole month of may flew by. of course i went to taiwan from 28 April to 8 May then i went on a short trip on the following weekend =) didn't really have the time to update although i was rather upset over work for a period of time but well just put on a f it mentality and i guess i'll be alright..

what's the point of slogging? i still want my life outside of work..

i've been rather happy of late or rather haven felt this way for a longlonglong time even before the guy in footnote*. =) however something marred my close to weekend mood. read the footnote* (again).

i look forward to the end of a workday every day. look forward especially to fridays and weekends. even if it's doing nothing. sleeping is fine as well =)

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Yesterday i woke up in the morning to find some guy msn like are you there or something at 2plus am. of course i was asleep. duh.

turns out. when i wanted to return his belongings in the past. he said no i dun want to see them you keep it. and then he proceeded to pass all the packaging games and all to me. of course i didn't touch them. i don't even play much with them!

now. he wants me to return them. to me. i don't use it, it's not an issue with me. but the fact that, there are guys who turn around on their words the next moment. wow. 好有风度的男人。。。not!!

wad a moronic ass. there is a reason why i'm not with you. i think my sixth sense somehow warned me. thus all along i only said that we're dating. haa. you know, you're the only one i "dated" seriously. that alone is enough to tell me something ain't right.

you probably can bitch to your close friends in office about what type of person i am. they may see me in a different light. but i don't really care, cause they do not know me as a person. someone who has a better judgement will not judge people by a one sided story. even when i do bitch about you. i still maintain a fair statement. that you will make a good bf. just not the kind that i want. seriously, after this incident i think you have just a petty, school kid mentality trapped in a 30 year old face.

ass.